I love to have constants in life and too many changes actually leave me drained of energy. I've moved on to a new phase of life and I have to admit, I've been struggling to adapt. In fact I felt miserable on the first few days of college. Attending college feels like I'm attending crash course everyday, Until now, I still can't believe that in a months' time, I've finished 8 chapters of Math. Superwoman speed. I was high school sick at a point of time. It was to the point where I secretly wished that I failed my BM in SPM and have to go back to high school again. *but I've changed my mind now. I cancel that wish. Wouldn't want to know what my parents' reaction may be if I ever fail BM

Right now I'm grateful for everything. I'm grateful that in hard times, He was always there to hold me through it. I'm grateful he gave me a bunch of friends who made me smile and laugh which made college life mucho better. I'm grateful for everything He has provided me with : guidance, comfort, encouragement. He knows everything I feel and He alone knows how I truly feel.

I believed, still do believe and will believe that I can laugh through the rain, dance through the fire and smile even when there's a storm ahead. But I know, there will still be times when I've got to let the tears flow, let myself go, and let the feelings show. One can't be too strong and hide everything behind a wall of bandages for too long. Hiding too much with bandages wouldn't heal it.

Sometimes there are things which require you to step out of your comfort zone and until now I'm still walking on that line, not having enough courage to step over. Yes, I have my insecurities and I'm still debating with myself to take that one step. I've been living comfortably for too long.

Time flies. Time has managed to grow a pair of wings which allow it to fly at a speed where nobody realizes that it had flew right past. 1 month had past and I'm still unproductive. There was a few things in mind but until now, I have yet to achieve them.

Should probably start being productive now.